Peace, not like the world gives...

Amazing grace, how sweet the sound...that saved a wretch like me. Let it be known that on any other circumstances, i would be a total wreck; depressed, emotional and melancholic. But through our weaknesses, God's strength is glorified.

I..am...HYPED. I seriously cannot ask for more. I've been experiencing favour upon favour at work. When i thought i was going to drown and die, time and time again, i get pulled out by some miracle and everything turned out well.

I've had enough time to train and it's slowly getting better. But i'm not giving myself the pressure to perform. I believe i'll hit my target. But most importantly i'm going to enjoy each and every session as i'm reminded that that's my joy, my passion - to train, to race.

And it's been one hard month, but i finally broke my no-alcohol rule. (I can so hear you snigger right about now. Oh shut it already)

Yes i had a beer. And then i had wine in the evening. Might as well go all out right? But there shall therefore be no condemnation! And i'm back to running 12km this evening. And it felt soooo awesome. I can't wait to do consistent 14ks for regular runs with a weekly 20-24km!

:)

I'm glad. Work and training has taken a huge uplift and the reason for that is i started trusting in God, talking to Him and turning to Him with every single worry, care and emotion..i just kept throwing it at His feet.

And through that, He's heard my heart, soothed it and have given me a clear mandate to trust Him and only Him with it...well, for now. It'll take alot to get it back. But at least i know that she would have needed to get it from Him..and i trust noone else to take care of the keys to my heart than God.

Time to keep moving on!! Time to keep running on!!

Long Weekends

Gotta love long weekends. No work means running in the late morning, getting a swim in at lunch time and leaving the rest of the day to chillax.

Work sucks. It just takes up the entire day, drained you mentally/physically and gotta rush home to run or to the pool to swim.

I had fun the past week..managed to have good food with awesome friends even with all the training in is so, so awesome.

Yamcheon meat!

best French toast i've tasted yet! at Mimolette!

Things are improving. There are still some ups and downs but it's getting better and sooner than i expected actually. Holding steadfast to my goals and beliefs.. keeping my heart safe, my mind sharp and my body in health for the challenges ahead...yeah, the challenges emotionally and physically.

It's already May. 3 more months.

Over view

My first race of 2011 will be the 2XU 12km Compression Run happening in 10 days time. Like most other races, I do not feel prepared for this event. With an average of three 12km runs a week, I am highly doubtful of doing a personal best, although finishing it will not be a problem.

I have no problem being mentally ready for a 12km run race as well; having done marathons before, I still find the latter more mental than physical. So my only wish for this race is to kickstart my motivation to train hard again.

I used to remember training 6 times a week, alternating between running, swimming and abit of cycling to prepare for triathlons. Those days made me sacrifice a lot of time with close friends. During the start of the year, I’ve admittedly neglected training by catching up with these friends and making new ones in the process. I have no regrets and someday perhaps I can say that I found that happiness by growing that special bond with a special someone.

Growing that special bond would mean spending more time and emotional investment. Will I be ready to do that when the opportunity really presents itself? I know I will not say ‘no’ when that happens, but not because I’m easy (I can hear your sniggers), but because if I’m already at that stage, it means I’ve already given it enough thought to know that that is what I want. And as selfish as it may sound, I want a happy relationship, to always have a good laugh with my peeps, and a healthy career.

Although it does not feel like it has been only three months (feels so much longer), I’m glad I’m back at a challenging environment that is giving me a lot of opportunity to improve, and prove, myself. I’m learning so much and am constantly being exposed to industry experts and am soaking up the experience. I have toyed with the idea that since I’m still young and single, I’ll gladly accept an overseas posting if given the opportunity to.

But all these plans to further develop my career overseas and training hard will take a backseat if I ever get into a relationship again. Will i?

My One & Only

31 July 2011. It looks set to be the one and only standard distance i will be doing this year. So i'm all ready to make the best outta it.

It's never too early to start preparations. I might burn out too early, but given my work schedule, i'd say i need to start doing it now.

It's going to come with alot of sacrifice. Going to have to give up alot of rest, alot of my favourite food and perhaps alot of fun times with my buddies.

But it's going to give me alot of time to think about life and reflect on what needs to be done. I'm tired of being emotional and setting myself up for more disappointments. It's funny isn't it? We actually can see where the path is going, but what makes us want to continue going down?

"It's not the person you can live with, it's the person you can't live without"