My One & Only

31 July 2011. It looks set to be the one and only standard distance i will be doing this year. So i'm all ready to make the best outta it.

It's never too early to start preparations. I might burn out too early, but given my work schedule, i'd say i need to start doing it now.

It's going to come with alot of sacrifice. Going to have to give up alot of rest, alot of my favourite food and perhaps alot of fun times with my buddies.

But it's going to give me alot of time to think about life and reflect on what needs to be done. I'm tired of being emotional and setting myself up for more disappointments. It's funny isn't it? We actually can see where the path is going, but what makes us want to continue going down?

"It's not the person you can live with, it's the person you can't live without"

2005

Surreal.

The End

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I Found It

Dear God, i know You have forgiven me for these emotions. But i absolutely am not regretting them right now..

I am so wanting this feeling right now. I want to race. I need to race.

This confusion, loaded with doubt. A hint of self-pity. With a dash of remorse and helplessness. Mixed together to have a taste of helplessness and captivity...just makes me want to run, run, run.

This feeling is back, it's what drove me out of immobility, overcoming the inertia and into consistency.

I have the tools i need now - the images of the past and future. Images to make my present stronger.

I found it again, and i'm going to ride it harder than ever before.

Looking back at old posts...

FRIDAY, JUNE 26, 2009
After that concussion on Monday...

Tue: Interval training, Running
Wed: Long Running
Thursday: Swimming
Today: Running...

And i did the 8 laps in an all new 47minutes 30sconds! Maybe i shouldn't keep thinking about when i'm going to hit the plateau. Maybe the one thing i should quit is that defeatist attitude and if i can keep going faster, then so be it.

I'm keeping in mind that i have two Olympic distance triathlons coming up in August and September. An IPPT to do in October that i'm aspiring to get gold (yes, i never got a gold in IPPT, but that has got to change. If there's a time to break that duct, it is now)

Tomorrow: Swimming and (hopefully) Cycling

Is it just me, or is cycling in Singapore tough? To be fully prepared for a Olympic distance triathlon, that's 40k of cycling. Is there any decent route in Singapore to clock that kind of mileage without the crazy traffic? And the right timing to juggle work hours in? Yeah, i thought so.

Need to step up the training! OSIM international triathlon, Tri-Factor triathlon, Stan Chart Marathon... oh! and did i mention..

Aviva Ironman Triathlon 2010!

Has anything changed? I had a good run up to the IM2010. I remember telling myself i must do better. What happened to that vow i made to myself?

I broke away, thought i had found a reason to stop training/racing, but that reason has continually left me. Maybe someday i will believe in it again, and this time, it will come back to me.

But i guess for now.. it's time i give it all up and go back to where there is freedom...even if it's just for that 10km on the road, alone and loving noone else but myself.

I am coming back...

Really need to..

Missed the Singapore Biathlon this weekend and i missed training all week while recovering from a flu.

And tomorrow's Valentine's Day. I don't think i've ever celebrated Valentine's Day much. Even when i was attached, i don't think i did anything extravagent. Guess i'm just cynical about a day that has become over-commercialised.

So in my individual attempt to mock the day tomorrow, i've gotten all ready to run my legs and lungs out. Just me and the tracks...

I admit that every time a good thing comes my way, i am afraid to believe in it, or to act on it. I just run away. I don't have the patience to wait for it to mature. I just run.

I know better now than to fill my head and heart with useless emotions. I'll just plug in to my new toy and do what i do best...

OMG, it has a friggin pedometer installed in it! If this sweet baby can live past a year, i'm more than happy.

Maybe two weeks of hardcore of running and swimming will get me back in physical shape, emotional stability and back to race-ready fitness.

Here we go..

Input vs Output

So far, still no races planned for 2011. Was supposed to sign up for couple of runs in March, but i have missed the registration deadline in January, so i'm left races-less.

Once again, Chinese New Year is the season to overeat and spend all day visiting relatives. I'm glad i managed to eat only 2 meals a day (big meals nonetheless) and got a run in this afternoon.

But it's been really hard to stick to a firm training schedule. More often than not, i'm working til late during the weekdays, and sometimes missing meals. I can't remember how many times i've had snickers for lunch.

Yup, i even stocked up on snickers. That's bad it is.

With whatever remaining time i have left, i've been hanging out and meeting my babes and dudes cos i really miss them. With great company, comes great food...

Oh gosh, i really do need my peeps to just chillax and forget about the weekday grind. :) Mucho lurve to them.

But i guess there are consequences. Been 6 days since my last run and this is what happened...

Epic Fail. Hahaha...

I believe it can be done and it's definitely been done before. Juggling work, friends, family and training. I'm sure you know someone who is doing it. It's not easy, but it can be done.

I'm gonna learn, suck it up, get disciplined and do it all over again. Hopefully, i'll be one of those guys you know who can work, train and make time for all my awesome friends!