Panic Attacks

I panic when i think about how it's effectively 6 weeks to 42km. I have been training but not for an endurance run. Instead, i've been clocking a fair bit of time on the bike, treadmill and strength/conditioning at the gym. I've only been covering 16km runs at least once a week. That's nowhere near the 21km-30kms i used to do the past couple of years. But then again, will the training on the bike and gym help? I'm not too sure. I doubt so. My breathing cycles have gone all haywired, i've been breathing for a 2hr run max. If i were to go for 5hours (or more) i definitely can't keep pace. Damn. Guess i really have to relook the training schedule for the next 6 weeks and salvage as much as i can! Oh and yes, i still haven't cleared my FRIGGIN' IPPT!!! ARGH!

Still shaky

My time's really divided on work and training. Sucks then when i'm done, nobody else is free or it's too late. But it's something i said i would do and i'm sticking to it. Also sticking to my decision made last week and so far so good. Doesn't feel entirely OK, and i don't expect everything to be a bed of roses, but at least there's a clear direction and i'm moving towards that. Definitely not worth my emotions and energy thinking too much about everything, but just keep my focus on the things that do! And for now, it's my last chance to pass my IPPT next week so i can focus on endurance training for the marathon and ironman!

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